The last few weeks have been a bit rough. Our family lost our Big dad and then my friend from highschool passed away … if you follow this blog, you know I generally take time to process events like these. While February hasn’t been the best, it also came with some good and now, I need to take some time to do a big job relocation because but will be back with a book review and then another Bemba video … stay tuned.
Christmas has come and gone, and if you are Christian, the last few days may have, or may not have taken on some significance. As we come to the end of the year, I have to admit that I am not too happy with what I did with my 2018. I broke one of my rules … not waiting for the next year to make plans. As we go into 2019, I remember the things we have achieved, but I can’t shake the feeling that there was more to give. I’ve been working on my own planner but have ended up buying one just so I can stay on top of my planning. I have struggled to use one this past year, but I am hoping that I will go back to my usual form this coming year.
I have been reflecting on the things I want in a planner and because I couldn’t find a suitable organiser type planner, and have tried different planning methods, I have come to the conclusion that I prefer simple layout binder planners where I can keep everything from my work schedules, blog posts, to reading and cleaning lists. So I set out on a quest to make my own planner and even that has been a learning experience for me. This coming year, I will be using an Otto binder planner, with some of the inserts that I think I need. I want to be productive, and this is how my mind works best to achieve this … My attention span is so short lately, I can’t use my phone because of the many distractions it comes with, This is not a new years resolution, just an attempt at sanity.
I like to think of myself as a master planner when it comes to my life but if you know me, and know me well, you know that I really am not that great at planning. I used to be one of those people who just went with the flow, but I now find that in order to maintain my sanity, I need to have some set plan; and by that, I mean one of those unchanging fixed step by step guides for my day.
Life however is not like that. My parents, I am sure always had plans for each of their kids, and I am sure me having a child at a really young age was not part of it. Still, when it happened they rose to the challenge and walked out the days ahead.
I hadn’t planned on my daughter being as attached as she is to my mother, and I definitely had my mind set on becoming a vet. I had never intended to fall for any man; that to me, was an unnecessary distraction.
Our plans are not to be seen as set in stone, fixed paths on a road, but more like sign posts on an unknown road. Think about it in this way, someone with a good, kind heart wakes you up and says, I want you to get to a place called Destination, but I want you to get there with only a few clues that I will keep giving you as you make the journey. You don’t know what deviations exist on this journey, but you start off. At different points you may find road closures for whatever reason with signs saying detour. Sometimes the earth quakes and leaves you shaken. Sometimes you get magged on the way to Destination and you are left wondering why this good person has led you to this place.
We plan, sort of as attempt to get to what we think the destination is, and then we realise we have not arrived and have to forge ahead towards another pitstop. There are times we allow winds and tides to take us along and sometimes even take us backward. Sometimes we fall and break and lose hope, but rather than feel like failures, we need to trust the One who set us on the journey and walk it out, with plans that we intend to fulfill; plans we are truly working to achieve, but all that in line with the view that Christ is above all, and ultimately, His will is above it all, and that our plans might be changed by the true master planner.